Green.

I must (shamefully) admit that I'm a little jealous of the lives some people live. I see people all the time who have things that I want and it makes me jealous and a little angry. I work hard. I've been putting not only my husband, but myself through school, and working full time while doing that. I have a calling in the church, and maintain a good relationship with my husband and our families. I feel a sense of entitlement to this life that I think must be better than the one I'm currently living. And at the same time I feel ashamed of myself for thinking this way because I know that I have a good life, and when I'm not overwhelmed with these feelings of "want" I know there is no other life I'd rather have than mine. But I can't help my weakness. That doesn't mean I can't control them, but I can't help them. They're part of who I am. I know there are so many who have it worse off than me. And I'm sure there are people who look at my life and think the same things I think about others. I need to get past this feeling of "needing" things I don't truly need, and get my mind and heart in order with the life God has mapped out for me.